Hello, ladies and gents. I've turned 18.
This event has allowed me to learn two things:
1. I have fantastic friends.
2. Even after all of last week, it's still possible to be left feeling empty.
I have fantastic friends because I just do- they all got together and got me two wonderful gifts. One was a ukulele (I showed interest in playing recently so they got me a nice one for incentive) and the other was a classy little pocketwatch (engraved with my name and the date, too).
On top of that, 9 out of 10 folks were able to make it to the 50's themed party I held, complete with record player, classy dinner table decorations, and the same suave suit I wear to every event.
So that was that- I turned 18, had a few ciders, enjoyed life exactly as I've always done, and now I'm sitting here, feeling empty again.
It's not anyone's fault except my own, really. There's just that trove of anxious thoughts clawing themselves through my mind again, just stupid doubts about stupid things. As I think I've said in the past, what's bothering me is all just people and things and people and things and people and things...
So the plan is to smile a bit, pretend I don't have anything due first day back of term, and just keep going without thinking too much about anything. That sounds easy as hell, HB. No. No no no no no. Not easy. 'Cos every damn second I find myself getting lost in my own thoughts and there's no way out.
Not a cry for help. Just an update. I don't have any story written as of now, so I guess that's all there'll be for now; just updates on how things are. You're all doing brilliantly, I hope, because it'd suck if you weren't.
Oh, responses to comments~
Kallistasista: Thanks a heap :D Unfortunately, I think I'm going to give up on my days of writing with like ten characters in a fanfic. So much work to include every character, y'know? So maybe just Raff for now.
Raven: Cheers, haha! It was so much fun to write that scene o.o
Octaboona: Thankyou! As always, I love your comments 'cos you're kind about my stories even when they're all over the place >.<
Sky: fkdsjhdlk thankyou for liking the quotes xD so bloody fun to write those bits, especially the "Surely you remember me saying this was a trap." and the Getchohandsoffmybow bit. Glad you appreciated them :D
Thal: Heyo! Thanks for the nice words XD And it's true, haven't spoken in ages. Although, partly my fault too cos I'm a lazy sonofagun and these holidays are leaving me prone to sleep-ins :P
Alright, folks, I'll leave you with a picture of me on my eighteenth. Thankyou for your time, patience, kind words, and company.
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Ciao for now, folks~
